Johnny "BestDude" Miller

I'm feeling very numb right now. I had one of the best/worst Valentine's Days ever. I lost one of my closest friends yesterday. John Miller was probably one of the sweetest guys I've ever met in my life. I don't think I've fully grasped the idea yet that he is gone. I can't come up with enough words to say how much that kid meant to me. He would have gone to the ends of the earth to make sure his friends were ok and know how much they meant to him. He was one of the few people that would laugh at my dumb jokes and listen to all of my boring stories. He would be my body guard at shows and make sure I didn't get pushed around too much. I remember while waiting in line to see The All-American Rejects we played a little game we liked to call "Guy or Girl?".....hey, sometimes you have to entertain yourselves and when you wear some of the things that emo kids wear, you might be asking for it/not able to tell what gender you are. We had alot of great times that I hope I will never ever forget. I feel blessed to have known such a wonderful guy and wish that I could have done as much for him as he did for me.

Johnny, I'm sure you are in Heaven rippin it up with your Dad and Dimebag. I love you and I'll miss you, BestDude. <3>

The good part of yesterday came in the form of my dinner with Izzy, Matt, and Courtney. The food at the Autumn was so delicious and we all had a great time chatting. Then we went back to the guys place and Izzy and I watched an episode of Always Sunny, cause he downloaded it for me. He also gave me two boxes of chocolate and a handmade card, with a picture of us drawn on the front. It was so sweet and cute. He also let me cry all over him. What a great guy. I'm very fortunate to have him in my life.

I also have such a great support system of friends and I don't know what I would do without them. I love you all so much. Forever and Always.