I can breathe a little easier now

Things were pretty rough last week. I was very nervous about a plethora of things: graduation and having all of my requirements, my internship, and as always the various aspects of my personal life. But most everything is cleared up now. I finally got to talk to the internship coordinator. Just thinking about talking to her was enough to send me into an almost panic attack. But she was actually very nice and supportive. She told me that I am a very charming and bright young lady, and that I should not have a problem getting an internship. But I have to apply to at least 10 internships, which will be the most applications I've ever had to do. (Remember: I only applied to one college....Oneonta. And my last two jobs did not require that I apply, I was actually asked to take the jobs.) So applying scares the crap out of me. I think I'll be ok though.

I've been playing catch up in all of my classes since before break, but I finally feel like I'm getting a good hold on things now. You can tell I've been stressed and busy, cause I started a blog post once last week and once the week before that, but just didn't have the energy or time to think about writing, so I never finished them or posted them. I just really need to keep cracking down, study a lot more than I do and get shit done!

I think I've also been so wrapped up in trying to spend time and hang out with everyone that I neglect some parts of my life...like school work, and showering. haha. But my eyes have been opened, and I see the people that are worth spending time with and that wanna spend time with me too. And those are the ones that will keep in touch after I leave, and that I will miss the most. I can't be in everyplace with everyone at once, so I need to relax and enjoy the people that want to be around me, not the people that I think I need to spend time with before I graduate. If they want to hang out with me they will put in the effort too.

I went with Rachel and Caitlin to Jenn's in Syracuse this past Friday. It was a lot of fun to just sit around and bs about stuff...and take a bajillion crazy pics with Jenn's mac. Then Rach and I came back to O-town, I tried unsuccessfully to get some work done, and then decided to spend the rest of the night winding down with Rachel, Jared, and Jared's friend Adam watching The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Rachel and Jared both got very angry with this movie. haha. The next morning/afternoon I went to b-fast/lunch with Rachel at Wilsbach. I thought it would feel weird being there again, but I actually saw a ton of seniors in there and other people I knew; fyi the kid from my highschool that used to be in love with me still works there. But it was a whole ton of fun. Then I got a bunch of work done, and went home at 9pm. Izzy came over and cooked me some AMAZING food.

I also got my truck back...my Dad took it for a bit to try to fix it. And (knock-on-wood) it is running great right now. =]

And now I'm off to have some coffee with my darling, Rachel. <3

I'll post again real soon.

Basically 2 more months...

Wow, I have so much work to catch up on. Pretty much all for Graphic Publication & Design. I like working with that stuff though, but it is just very time consuming. oh well, I have to get it done at some point, I just have to keep chugging along. Plus I still haven't applied for internships...I know it's because I'm very unmotivated about graduating. I'm actually excited to graduate, but still unsure of the 'real world'. I know I just have to get my shit together and do it though.

On a kind of downside, I was sick for most of my winter break last week, and cooped up at home the whole time. I love being home, but after awhile I got a little bit of cabin fever. I'm getting better slowly, but now my Dad is sick. Poor guy, can't catch a break. =/ I have also decided that I do very stupid things when I drink, and that while still being sick, I probably won't be drinking for a little while. But it's for the best, so oh well. I'll save some money, maybe loose some weight, get a little healthier, and what not. Overall I think it's a good decision. This doesn't mean that I'm not gonna go out though, I'll still be ramming around all the time. You just won't see me with a beer in my hand, and hopefully that means I won't wake up the next day regretting texting the people I do.

The rest of the semester is going to be pretty busy too. I have NACA this weekend with Adam and Rachel. It should be a good time, and I'm really excited. Plus, Rachel is my roomie at the hotel! YAY! I'm working alot of nights this month too. More so than I expected, on top of my usual 8-10am mornings. But I think April and May are going to be the most intense for me. The 18th I have our class show at the Chesnut Theater for my Concert Production class. The next weekend is OH-Fest 4 and the weekend after that is HeadyFest5, plus I might be going to Cortland sometime that weekend. Maybe, if I can manage it. And then it's finals week and then graduation. Yikes. It will be over before I know it. wow.