I can breathe a little easier now

Things were pretty rough last week. I was very nervous about a plethora of things: graduation and having all of my requirements, my internship, and as always the various aspects of my personal life. But most everything is cleared up now. I finally got to talk to the internship coordinator. Just thinking about talking to her was enough to send me into an almost panic attack. But she was actually very nice and supportive. She told me that I am a very charming and bright young lady, and that I should not have a problem getting an internship. But I have to apply to at least 10 internships, which will be the most applications I've ever had to do. (Remember: I only applied to one college....Oneonta. And my last two jobs did not require that I apply, I was actually asked to take the jobs.) So applying scares the crap out of me. I think I'll be ok though.

I've been playing catch up in all of my classes since before break, but I finally feel like I'm getting a good hold on things now. You can tell I've been stressed and busy, cause I started a blog post once last week and once the week before that, but just didn't have the energy or time to think about writing, so I never finished them or posted them. I just really need to keep cracking down, study a lot more than I do and get shit done!

I think I've also been so wrapped up in trying to spend time and hang out with everyone that I neglect some parts of my life...like school work, and showering. haha. But my eyes have been opened, and I see the people that are worth spending time with and that wanna spend time with me too. And those are the ones that will keep in touch after I leave, and that I will miss the most. I can't be in everyplace with everyone at once, so I need to relax and enjoy the people that want to be around me, not the people that I think I need to spend time with before I graduate. If they want to hang out with me they will put in the effort too.

I went with Rachel and Caitlin to Jenn's in Syracuse this past Friday. It was a lot of fun to just sit around and bs about stuff...and take a bajillion crazy pics with Jenn's mac. Then Rach and I came back to O-town, I tried unsuccessfully to get some work done, and then decided to spend the rest of the night winding down with Rachel, Jared, and Jared's friend Adam watching The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Rachel and Jared both got very angry with this movie. haha. The next morning/afternoon I went to b-fast/lunch with Rachel at Wilsbach. I thought it would feel weird being there again, but I actually saw a ton of seniors in there and other people I knew; fyi the kid from my highschool that used to be in love with me still works there. But it was a whole ton of fun. Then I got a bunch of work done, and went home at 9pm. Izzy came over and cooked me some AMAZING food.

I also got my truck back...my Dad took it for a bit to try to fix it. And (knock-on-wood) it is running great right now. =]

And now I'm off to have some coffee with my darling, Rachel. <3

I'll post again real soon.